melancholic.
September 18, 2008 | 8:11 AM
曲：永遠の途中 - w-inds.
this is the song i always listen to when im feeling alone. ashley and ben and doing work on the opposite side of the room so i dont really want to disturb them. its finally a thursday, but i dont feel happy at all. at least, not for now. its been another tiring week, because im looking at recess week next week, i guess. a strange sort of loneliness envelops me as i sit here, probably after reading a friend's entry on companionship and love, and having to share the same room now with a couple comfortable in each other's company, laughing, joking, whispering.
maybe the week is just getting to me - i dont know. i see how stressed cheryl is, and i worry for her. but i realise that perhaps its the same for me too - but ive gotten used to trying to block out time for myself. results have come out - i feel a bit not here not there, but i think whats done is done.
now i understand what matsu from EXILE meant when he was answering the question, "寂しい時は何をしますか？"
”もっと寂しいことをする”souka. maybe that's how i am. to hide inside my shell.
velda.
